I think im back on track

Ok I gave up. She is not going to answer me, and I think I should stop reading her web log. At least for a while, because I can not stop reading it. I haven’t done any of my readings for school this past few days. I just went to library and instead of studying I was just reading her web log. Every chance I get I go to my computer and start reading again. The more I read I realize that our world is totally different. My life is as interesting as her and every person has an interesting life story. It is jus that she is a great writer, she has an interesting style that I like so much. I should give her the credit for that. She has her own friends and her own group that they were there in a same place at the same time. Yes I was there too but I wasn’t part of that. And it also doesn’t mean that these two people are the only interesting people in the world. And besides who cares if I’m not like them, if I don’t write like them, I will continue writing for myself just like before, the only difference is that now I am typing it, which is much more convenient. I don’t even want to have a public web log, I’m not good with answering to comments about my web log anyways, I hardly ever catch up with responding to my friends emails, how am I going to read and send emails to others that I don’t even know. Yes she is great. But I’m not her, and I cant be , and I don’t wan to be. I want to be myself. And also I didn’t started in 2001? So what? I start now. Does everyone had to start at that time? And if not its too late? of course not. Anyways I’m not going to talk about this any longer. And I hope these thoughts stay with me for few days and I don’t go back to reading her web log. I will later but not write now. I’m too busy and don’t have the time or energy to put myself in this possession.